Two Angels in Heaven

June 11, 2012 was our first ultrasound appointment.

And boy was I a nervous wreak. 

I sat there after waiting for a little bit and said this to Robby..

"I think it's okay if we go now.. I'm sure I'm fine!" 

He smiled and started rubbing my back.. assuring me everything was going to be fine. 

And it was.

Robby saw the heartbeat right away, but it took a second for me to see the heartbeat because the lovely Traci (our ultrasound tech who I just LOVE) was measuring my uterus.. or at least that's what I think she was doing. What do I know? haha.

I finally saw the little bitty heart beating. The little heart was beating 162bpm. I was in shock. Could this be? Are we really going to have a baby this time around?

We were extremely happy and felt blessed beyond measure.

 Our little angel

The second appointment was on June 25th.
Robby was working offshore so my mom and dad came with me to my appointment. 
My mom wasn't sure about going because she was hurt and distraught from my first experience back in 2011.
When I saw the baby on the screen I knew instantly that something was wrong.
No heartbeat once again.

What a devastating experience this was... again!
And without my husband there.. 
Even worse.
I won't go into detail with this miscarriage and with my d&c experience since I haven't even finished my blog entries for my first miscarriage but let's just say that this has been extremely hard for Robby and I to go through. Especially since we heard a heartbeat. We are now waiting for July 30th to roll around so we can see what the doctor has to say about the fetus testing. We are praying and hoping for good results. If the fetus testing comes out normal than they will do some testing on me.
I'm about to go buy a journal just so I can write down everything I've had/have to go through. 
My children better appreciate me! ;)

Surprise, surprise!

We're PREGNANT!

People who know us well, know we have been trying since forever ago. 

And after many cry fest, doctors appointments, vitamins, clomid pills, a thyroid problem, PCOS, keeping track of my cycle and ovulation dates, heartbreaks, thousands of dollars worth of doctor bills, shots, and a miscarriage later.. 

We are finally pregnant.

Robby and I did artificial insemination on May 1st. And we decided if this didn't work, than we would stop trying for awhile because we couldn't take the heartbreak anymore and we definitely couldn't afford an artificial insemination each month or even every other month for that matter. We went in for the artificial insemination and everything turned out great..

I won't go into details with all our personal info but let's just say the odds were in our favor. 

And it worked the first time! I had to take hcg shots on the 3rd, 6th, and 9th of May, which helps the egg stay fertilized. They told me not to take any pregnancy test until they gave me the say so because those shots can give me a false positive since it is basically a pregnancy hormone, but I was kinda curious so I took a test just for the heck of it a couple days before my period was suppose to start and it said this..

I did keep in mind that I could get a false positive so I didn't get too excited.

My period didn't start on the 17th or the 18th so I called and they said the shot is out of my system and gave me the okay to take a pregnancy test and the results were..

 

And I also took another one the next day, 

and another one the day after that, 

and another one the day after that.

After I took all these test.. I thought of Rollo from Juno when he said.. "That ain't no Etch-A-Sketch. This is one doodle that can't be un-did, Homeskillet." Except I WANTED to be knocked up whereas Juno didn't. Haha.. I just couldn't believe it! I feel so blessed that the AI worked the first time.

Can someone please tell me why I feel like time is just ticking away? I better get my booty in gear. I have lots to learn and lot's to do! 

Here's a start: I'm off to buy the book, "What to Expect when your Expecting."