Saturday, July 14, 2012

July 4th 2012

  Was I into the 4th of July this year?
Well, to be honest.. um no. I wasn't.
I mean I would have been pumped up and ready for face painting, sparklers, and painting my nails red, white, and blue if it wasn't for the following:
 Second miscarriage. 
Second d&c surgery.
No fireworks nearby due to wildfires here in Colorado.
And the husband wasn't here while I was going through heartache. 

I did however find enough energy in me to make a flag cake. 
I had to do something. I'm a freak for the holidays. Love em' all. Especially, the 4th of July. It's probably my second favorite holiday if I had to number them in order of favorites. I can't let a holiday pass me by without making some kind of craft or special dish. It's just not in my blood to forget about the holidays, no matter what obstacles I'm going through or faced with.

My family and I decided to take a drive up to Loveland which is about an hour away to see the fireworks over the lake. Because let's face it.. the 4th without fireworks is like.. cereal without milk (first thing that came to mind haha).

 Long story short: 
We saw elk in front of someone's house which was the hi-light of my night by the way, walked by a house full of drunks that had signs up saying "If you park here we'll shoot you," saw someone from that house get thrown to the ground by a police officer, had the worse cramps of-my-entire-life, and to top it all off.. once the fireworks started we couldn't even see them. 
An hour of driving for nothing.
 Oh. My. Goodness.
Talk about a pretty crappy 4th.

 (Experimented with this yummy chocolate moose frosting I pinned from a friend off of Pinterest awhile back. Instead of chocolate pudding mix.. I added cheesecake pudding mix so I could get white frosting. So good!)

(Elk wandering into someone's backyard)

(Trying hard to smile)
(In pain)
(My sweet daddy)

(Sunflower with a bee zooming by)

Even though I had a long list of all the negative crap that happened that day.. 
I have learned to count my blessings in all I do, in any given situation.


  1. I came across your blog via a friend from college. I too have PCOS and have struggled for almost 2 years with infertility and a miscarriage. To say I know your pain is an understatement. I am so sorry to hear of your loss and heart break again. From one blogging stranger to another, I pray you'll feel comfort during this difficult time and that good news is just around your corner.

  2. Aww London is my sweet friend!!! I'm so glad blogging can bring stories and people together even though they don't know each other...and even if it's under horrible circumstances! I hope both of you have good news in the very near future!

    And your cake looks great Brooke! This was a crappy 4th for all but glad you made a cake :)

  3. London, first of all.. I LOVE your name! Second, thank you so much for the sweet comment. People always ask if there's anything they can do and I always respond back with.. PRAYERS! I need all the prayers I can get so thank you so much. I hope and pray for you as well. If you don't mind me asking, do you blog about your infertility problems and if so can I read those entries? :)

    And thanks Erica! I had to do something despite the pain. :) Love your 4th of July post btw.

    1. My blog is and there are a few posts about our struggle with infertility and PCOS. Hopefully, there won't be too many more :)